And I'm just like, gross. Like kids, I really like I I have a son. I love my son, but I really don't care for kids. Kids are little filthy, reckless, belligerent animals. Like kids are very honest. They just tell you what's on their mind. They just say whatever they want to you however they want because they don't have a filter. Holy [ __ ] It's a tribe called Best. Hey, what's up? ItsMeKnowlo, and this is a tribe called Best. Want to welcome everybody to the best show on the internet and the internet. This is another bonus episode and today I have a story to tell. So, I don't know if you can see my arm, but it is in a sling. Yes, it is. I have a ruptured bicep. Yeah, sounds painful. It is. It was. I had a I was supposed to go to back to school night at my son's school on Wednesday. Went to work, talks to my manager. Hey, it's back to school night at my kids school. Uh, you know, I want to knock off my work a little bit early and get out of here. If it's any overtime, can I please forego overtime for today? I want to get out of here early or on time. Is that possible? Please and thank you. My manager says, "Yes, it's all g good." I go, "Oh, and I'm prepared to get out of there early, go home, shower, [ __ ] and uh, you know, head up there to the back to school night." Midway through the day, I get an email. His school is saying, "We cancelled back to school night." There is a outbreak of what is it? Hand, foot, and mouth disease. So, we are canceling it until further notice. We We don't know when it's going to happen. And I'm just like, gross. Like, kids, I really like I I have a son. I love my son, but I really don't care for kids. Kids are little filthy, reckless, belligerent animals. Like, kids are very honest. They just tell you what's on their mind. They just say whatever they want to you however they want because they don't have a filter. They're like a lot of adults. They lack emotional intelligence. They don't know how to read the room. They're like filthy, like brutally honest little disease machines. So, it's canlled because of the outbreak. And I'm like, "Okay, whatever. Work my full day, clock out, go home." And my boy says, "Hey, Dad, can you take me to the park?" I say, "Yeah, of course. Yeah, Dad. I'll take you to the park. Let's go. Let me sit down. Let me eat. Let me uh, you know, decompress and debrief from the day, and we will go to the park. We'll have fun. We'll have a blast." I'm one of those people that thinks it's no excuse to be a deadbeat parent, particularly a deadbeat dad, but a deadbeat parent cuz nowadays there are lots and lots of deadbeat moms. It's very unnecessary. Now that I have a child, I discovered that raising a kid is pretty easy. Like it's pretty easy being a parent. To be a parent, you have to show up. A lot of people don't show up. A lot of people don't want to do the work. A lot of people don't want to do none of the work that life requires. The way you do anything is the way you do everything. You don't do good at your job. You don't do good in your relationship. You don't raise children correctly. I don't know if you guys hear that. It's a lot of [ __ ] noise outside. Somebody is screwing around with the dumpster. I don't know what it is, but I can hear it on my headphones. Hopefully you guys can't hear it on the recording. Um, so being a parent is not as difficult as you think it is because a lot of it is showing up and a lot of it is just being loving. Like I I heard a phrase they said, "How does a kid how does a kid spell love?" T I M E. Right. And I've always had that in my back pocket. I've always uh held on to that phrase and I've always valued it. How does a kid spell love? T I M E. And I've always been a believer in spending time with your loved ones because if you are able to make a lot of money and be financially well off and you can do for your children and you could provide this awesome lifestyle, perfect. That's great. Check chicken. Get a lot of money, do all this stuff for your kids, do all this stuff for your family and you know, build a legacy, so to speak, right? If you don't have money, if you're a brokster, if you're poor, if you're destitute, if you're tapped out, number one, don't have kids. But number two, if you're a brokster and you don't have any money, you could still raise a perfectly well adjusted, normal, awesome kid. Guess how kids spell money? T I M E. Spend time with your kid. You ain't got to have no money. You don't have to be chicken. don't have to be rich. Educate your kids while they at home. Learn how to cook. Cook them homecooked meals. It It's a lot of stuff that's cheaper than eating out all the time. You don't got to go to Disneyland. Go to the park. Your children will be happy on the slide and on the swing playing with other kids, meeting other little nasty disease factory, brutally honest kids. Your child will be happy having a normal child experience. So, it's no excuse to be a deadbeat dad, dead beat father, deadbeat mom. No excuse. I digress. My kid wants to go to the park. I eat. I shower. I put on park clothes and we go to the park. One side of the park is a big grass field and there are tables, barbecue grills, that little park workout equipment, and transients. We go over there cuz my kid wants to play baseball. We got the wagon, we got the baseball bat, we got the ball, we got the glove. We playing baseball. My son plays t-ball. But when it's me and him, we don't use the tea. I pitch, he hits. I want him to be a little more advanced and a little bit better than everybody else because a lot of parents might be working with their children with the T. I'm not and I won't. And my kid knows how to hit without the T. He knows how to hit a pitch. I do flash cards and vocabulary with my kid. My my my old lady shows him site words. He's learning how to read and spell and identify words. That's something that he's learning outside of school. We want him to be bigger, faster, stronger, and smarter than the other children. He has to be raised better than I was, better than my wife was. Anyway, we up there playing baseball and uh we running around. We using our imagination. and we're Jurassic Park. I'm the dinosaur. Blah blah blah blah blah. He gets tired of that. He wants to go to the other side of the park. I said, "We cross the street. We go to the other side of the park. It is jungle gyms, swings, slides. It's a little uh boys and girls club. It's a skate park. And it is more transients." We get to the other side of the park. He's swinging. He's sliding. He's running. He's playing. So, there is a jungle gym and connected to it are these big giant uh stones. They're they're like installations. Kids could walk on them. One jungle gym has a stone right here and right here it's another like independent stone. Um I'm this tall. You can see that cuz I'm on camera, right? The rock is this high. The installation is this high. How high is this high? I won't say. I might be Nipsey Hussle's height. I might be as tall as Abraham Lincoln. I might be Kevin Hart's height. I might be Katt Williams height. I won't say. Figure it out. But the stone is this high. He gets on top of the stone. He's jumping off. I'm Spider-Man. I'm skydiving. I'm jumping out of an airplane. Watch me jump. I'm Peter Parker. Watch me jump. Look. So, he's jumping off the rock. I'm catching them. We're having a good time. The good time is had by all. We laughing. We lit. The other parents is looking at us. They impressed cuz the other dads is sitting to the side. Um, fat and they on their cell phones. They not active. All the women, all the men, all the kids are looking. They're impressed. Oh my god. Look how they're playing. Oh my god. Look how they're playing. Look at the way that he jumps. Look at the way that he catches him. Everyone's impressed. He's jumping, jumping, jumping. Now, my kid, I don't know if other kids are like this, but my kid always ups the ante. It's always more, more, more. Let's intensify everything. Let's up the ante. He's jumping. What if I jump with my eyes closed? What if I jump backwards? What if I jump sideways? What if I jump and do a Power Rangers kick? I'm like, "Chill. You're doing too much. I have to catch you." You get You get what I'm saying? I'm doing a a a big part of the work. Chill. Don't OD. Somebody's going to get hurt. So he says, "What if I jump this way?" I said, "Don't." I said, "I don't move that fast. Don't jump that way. Cuz if you jump that way, I might not shuffle my feet fast enough to catch you over there." Next thing I know, he dives to the right. I lean right to catch him. And you guys that are listening to this audio, you can't see it on video, but I I throw my right arm to the right like um if if he's not a baseball, he's 45 lbs. 45 to 48 lb. He's 5 years old. Um you know, if you were reaching for a baseball, you're reaching for a football, you do that that lean, that dive, that slow motion, you catch it and save the day type catch. He dives right. I lean right. I throw my arm right and I catch him on my my forearm and my arm hyper extends. My arm bends back and it felt like my arm exploded. I'm I'm 40. Y'all that grew up in my age and my era, we grew up getting weapons, shoes, belts, whatever. You know what it feels like when you get hit with that belt? That's what my arm felt like. like it felt like my my arm like a extreme like sting pop slap. I catch him with my right arm. My right arm ruptures. I like like hug him up like like a a bear hug so I don't drop him from my right arm cuz my right arm immediately loses power. I get him with my left arm and I sit him down. I say, "Hey, it's over. Last jump. That was it. Time to go. We packing it up, homie." Well, I want to jump one more time. I'm Miles Morales. Nah, brother. It's over. It's over. Pack it up, Junior. My arm is destroyed. Like, we have to go there. That's what I'm telling them. Like, I gained my composure. I'm cool as a fan. I'm the coolest cat in the alley. I could feel the wind blowing through my whiskers. I'm so cool. I don't panic. I don't stress out. In life, if you panic, you will get killed. No, I want to jump. Oh my god, I want to jump. It's over. It's time to go home. He gets in his wagon. We look around. We take inventory. Make sure he didn't leave no toys. Didn't leave no baseball. Baseball bat glove. Make sure nobody looted our stuff from the wagon. We pack up. We go. I'm holding my arm like this. like it's already in a sling at a 90° angle because my arm is like I won't say locked up, but I can't extend it. So, I'm holding my arm like this in a 90° angle. I'm trying to push the wagon. It's a big giant Costco wagon. It has toys in it. It has a 48lb boy inside. So, I grab my arm by the bicep and I kind of squeeze it and then I can slowly lower my arm down. So, I lower my arm down and I walk home. And it's one of those things where like I'm just walking home with a limp arm just like like like like I'm a war veteran, right? I'm walking home, my phone rings. [ __ ] I don't know if y'all are like me. Like I'm I'm a social person. I love my family. I I like talking to people. It's cool. Like I still talk on the phone. I have lots of phone conversations, but you get so many scam likely and so many so many just BS calls that like I get tired of my phone ringing. Like every time my phone rings, I'm immediately aggravated because it's it's some cap. Like it's it's some BS on the other line. My phone rings. It's my mom. Hey, what's up? ItsMeKnowlo. What do you want? Hey, just called to see how you were doing. Just called to see what's going on. How are you guys doing? What's going on? I'm like, uh ah nothing. Just walking down the street. Ugh. Ah. Coming from the park with my son. Ah. Oh. Yeah. How was work? What's going on? And I'm just woo woo whoop whoopty [ __ ] Ah. Oh, I'll call you back later. You know, all the while through the winces and moans and groans of agony, you don't say, "Hey, is something going on over there? Are you injured? Are you having sex? What's up with all the groans?" I say, "Smell you later, Mom. Talk to you later. Bye." I walk, I get home, I get my son out of the wagon, I put him in the house, I load the baseball and the baseball bat and the glove and the toys into the house. I bring the wagon into the house and my wife is not there. My wife went to run errands and pick up groceries. Phone rings again. It's my old lady. Hey, what you doing? Listen, listen, listen. Don't make anything for dinner. I'm going to bring food home. I'm going to bring you food. Don't make anything. I'm bringing you food. Okay, cool. She comes home. She's at the door. She has bags of food. She has Philly cheese steaks. One is vegetarian. I'm not vegan, but I'm vegetarian. I eat vegan food, though. She has two Philly cheese steaks. One of them is vegetarian. She comes in the door. I said, "Hey, let's go to the hospital. I need to go." What's the matter? Is my baby hurt? Is my son Is something happening to my son? Is my son hurt? What happened to my son? Did he get hurt at the park? What's happening? Hey, he's straight. Nothing is happening, but I'm in pain. Um, I'm not a doctor, but I think I broke, tore, ruptured my bicep. My bicep is in my arm like a ball. Like like I felt the muscle rip and now it's up top up here. My bicep is not where it belongs. So can you take me to the hospital, please? Yeah. Let's go. Let's do it. Welcome to the urgent care. The urgent care, they close at 9:00. So we have about an hour. We'll hurry up and get you to the urgent care. We're going to go ahead and take you over there. They're going to look at everything. I'm like, "Yeah." And uh we load my son into the car. We load myself and we load my wife into the car and we get ready to uh we we start driving. We get on the freeway and I'm sitting there and I'm just I'm a chatty patty. Like I'm on this mic. I want to um essentially I want to talk for a living. I don't know why I'm so lazy and why I don't record a lot because I talk like a machine gun. I like to talk. I should be talking constantly, but a lot of times I'm too lazy or procrastinate too much or my ADD is kicking so hard that I just don't sit in this chair and turn on the mic. But we're in the car and I'm talking about whatever my day. I'm talking about life. I'm talking about Damon Dash. I'm talking about my dreams and aspirations. uh the people that I'm going to meet and the places that this podcast is going to take me. I got to learn other skills and and how to level up and just continue to make content and inspirate and motivate and find my besties. And she's like, "It's okay. We're almost there. It's cool. It's Don't worry. It's okay. We're almost there." And I'm like, "No, I'm not worried." Like I'm fine. I have a pretty high uh pain tolerance. I have a pretty pretty high pain tolerance. Like it hurts, but I'm just cooling. Like I'm just cooling. Like it's not really a big deal. She's not panicking. I'm not saying that she's panicking, but women are generally kind of panic e. It it it seems to be a natural disposition. I love y'all. We're driving. We get there. My wife pulls up to the urgent care. You got your card? Yeah. You got your wallet? Yeah. Is your card in your wallet? Yeah. Is your wallet in your pocket? Yeah. Do you have pants on? Yeah. Do your pants have pockets? I'm going to go in. Go ahead and park. I love you. I go in. I get checked in. I talked to the woman at the door. She says, "What's the matter?" I said, "Ow, my arm feels like my arm exploded. My arm popped. It hurts." She gives me the paper and she says, "Go in there and check in." I go get in line. I'm the third person in line. I show them my card with my medical record number. They check me in. My name is on the screen like at the DMV. I have to wait to be called. My name says, ItsMeKnowlo. 30 to 45 minutes." Okay, bet. I have a book in my backpack that I'm going to read. I also have my laptop and I wanted to do some editing work, but I was so kind of like distracted uh by the pain. I didn't want to whip out my laptop, find somewhere to put it, put in the the the SD card, put on my headphones, balance the laptop on my lap, and and start working. It was just a bridge too far. So I said that I would read this uh hippie finding yourself self-help center your chi the obstacle is the way better help now I can tell you the secret to success book spiritual line up your chakras book I started reading the book the book is entirely and completely and totally totally dog [ __ ] It's garbage. I left it in the lobby. I sat it on the table. Uh it now belongs to the street. I was reading the book and it was just this guy who was thought to be, I guess, mentally ill, but it turned out that he was a psychic and he had all these uh transances and he would tell people's future and these things that were going to happen. And the whole entire book, it wasn't like really any stories. It wasn't any like uh articles. I'm not an author. I don't know if they're called articles, but maybe I guess chapters, but it was like a poorly written, poorly produced uh book that just had testimonials. It was it was just very stupid. Like, it made me it made me sick to the stomach. Um I'm sitting in the lobby. My weight is ItsMeKnowlo, 30 to 45 minutes on the screen. So, I'm looking at the screen and someone that walked in 5 minutes ago got caught. People that are walking in 10 minutes ago got caught. My weight says 30 to 45. And people that came in after me are being caught. I guess their injuries are more severe than mine. The weight goes down. ItsMeKnowlo. 20 minutes. Somebody that just walked in is getting caught. People that walked in after me is getting caught. My weight goes down. I'm looking at the TV screen. ItsMeKnowlo. 5 to 10 minutes. I see like three other people getting called and I'm very, very patient. I swear to God, homie. I'm a saint. Like, I'm I'm patient to a degree. Let me let me not lie. Um, if I don't like you, I have zero tolerance. But if I do like you, I have infinite tolerance. And you can do you can do no wrong. And I'm very patient with the process. Most things I'm I'm patient when I'm patient with this podcast. I post videos on TikTok that get seven likes. And I don't put a gun to my head and kill myself that I see that the video gets like three views and two and a half likes, you know? So I I'm I'm a very patient person and it's all for the process, right? It's all just a process. I'm sitting there. It says 5 minutes. Somebody finally comes out and calls my name. I have to walk across the room. ItsMeKnowlo. Come in the back. It's your turn. I get up. I walk across the room zombie style. Um, I go in the back and I'm assigned to a nurse. And it's funny because I got the same nurse that I had last time. If you guys follow me on TikTok, go a few videos back and I made a video about uh work shoes. I had some work shoes that were too big. They rubbed the bottom of my foot. I had a gigantic blister. The gigantic blister busted. The skin came off of my foot and pretty much like the the whole center of my foot, like the whole epidermis was gone. I uh the whole layer of skin was gone from the bottom of my foot. I had a whole entire raw exposed foot. It was disgusting and it hurt. Long story short, my arm is hurt. I'm in urgent care. I see the same nurse. I said, "Hey," I said, "It's you again." And she's like, "Hey." We talked, chatty patty, small talk. A couple laughs were had. And uh she sends me to the back. I sit in room 10. The doctor finally comes in. He takes my vitals. It's a woman. Sorry. She she uh you know, she she uh after the nurse takes my vitals, I'm in room 10. The doctor comes in and looks at me. Uh fills up my arm, tells me to uh do this movement, do that movement. What were you doing? How long ago did it happen? What's your pain level? Blah blah blah. She looks at her uh Apple smartwatch. Oh, the urgent care closes at 9. So, uh we're going to give you the bums rush. We're going to get you out of here. I'm going to order up a X-ray for you and we're going to have you to go across the street, get the X-ray taken, and the results of the X-ray will go to the ER and you're going to go to the ER and they will finish you up over there. I say, "Okay." I leave. I go get the X-ray and um I asked the doctor. I was like, "Hey, um why are you giving me an X-ray?" Like, "Oh, it's my muscle." Like, it's like it's nothing. There's nothing wrong with like my bone like I still have some like uh moity. I don't I don't know if that's the word. Uh like like my elbow and everything like that. The bone feels fine like but my muscle really hurts like and she's like oh well we have to check the elbow. So I mean I guess they're doing their job you know. I guess they're being uh vigilant cuz they have to rule out all possibilities. I go across the street. I get the X-ray. I go to ER. Now, this is a whole different world. We're in the ER. It's full of people. It's a lot of strange people. It's a lot of people. I think that I'm I think that I'm spoiled in life. I think that I only kind of be around like certain kind of people. And I'm not saying that I'm not saying that as a race thing. I be around all races of people. We're not saying a race thing, but I've been around like certain kind of people. So, I don't really be used to coming in contact with a lot of uh diplomatically, how do I say diplomatically? Like, I don't know. I don't be close to like unsavory people, you feel me? And I go in there and it stinks. And it's it's it's a lot of people with blankets and it's a lot of people with uh face tattoos and it's a it's a lot of people in there with like nasty stuff going on. You know when you see somebody and that you you got a leg and you got a exposed wound or something. I can see what's going on in your leg and I'm like like I I see I went like you know when you could see I'm like oh I see what's wrong with you. Like that's scary. So it's packed to the gills. It's like sardines. There's people everywhere. Now mind you, my wife bought me a vegetarian Philly cheese steak sandwich. This was like 3 hours ago. So the whole time the Philly cheese steak sandwich is in my bag. I have in my hand. I have not even opened the bag. I have not got to touch that sandwich. I didn't want to eat it in the urgent care because the urgent care was nice and clean and there was a handful of people in there. Maybe like 15 people. Capacity was like 75. It was maybe like 15 people in there. But I was like, it's a lot of people here. I don't want to eat my sandwich around all these people. Gross. Uh, people are coughing and they're sick. So, I didn't eat my sandwich in the urgent care. By the time I get to the ER, man, it's like a triage. It's like a trauma unit. It's like like Saving Private Ryan. It it's like a um it's like a welfare line or something. And so I'm like, I'm super not going to eat my sandwich. And then on Jesus, I didn't even sit down. I didn't even want to be close to nobody. I swear on everything I love. I didn't even want to be close to nobody. I went next to the restroom and to the payoneses and stood up and watched Master Chef on the TV. Like I I didn't want to sit down. I didn't want to touch nothing because I'm one of those people. I don't know if this is a human thing or I don't know if this is a me thing. I personally, ItsMeKnowlo. I hate hospitals. Um, I like them cuz they do the large work. I like hospitals. I like doctors. If you fix me, if you heal me, um, healthcare is expensive. Fix me, please. Give me your western medicine, I'll take it. But I hate hospitals. How cold they are, how sterile they are, how it's other people there. Um, you know, I'm I'm sitting on a chair or equipment or something that somebody else touched. I got to go to the restroom. somebody else use that restroom. Like to me, it's all very frightening. I don't like any of it. I'm scared of any kind of institutions, uh, jail, uh, penitentiary, whatever. I've never been, but I won't go. I've seen TV. It's pretty scary. I don't like the idea of a hospitals. And like I said, the cold, stur, ugly walls and the art in hospitals is ugly and stupid. The the furniture, I don't like the furniture. I don't sit down. I won't touch it. I go in the back um standing next to the restrooms and next to the payoneses and I'm watching Hell's Kitchen and they're calling names and the people aren't there. They're calling people five times and people are in there cussing. and this lady and their cousin. Tell me if it's something wrong with me. I want to get up out of here. You need to let me know in this mf if it's something wrong with me. Woo woo woo. People, we doing it for the process. They behind the scenes processing something. They doing something in the back pertaining to your health. I'm not a doctor. I don't know what they doing. But I don't think they back there playing tic-tac-toe. I don't think they back there jacking off. I think they back there doing whatever your medical crap is. And somebody is going to let you know something. It's you and 9,000 other people in this room. So like you sitting there feeling like your time is wasted and you miserable and you don't want to be in here around these filthy, nasty, coughing, hurt, injured, sick people. Other people feel like that too. You're not the only one that's stressed out. You're not the only one that's irritated. You're not the only one that want to go home. I don't know how much I can say that to people or I don't know if that's a lesson that people will ever learn. Stop bitching. Nobody gives a [ __ ] Like nobody cares about what you have to say. When you go to places, you go to the DMV, you go to the hospital, you go to the grocery store and the line is long. Shut the [ __ ] up. These are all voluntary things. You don't have to go anywhere and you don't have to do anything. Shut the [ __ ] up and stop complaining. You don't have to go to the grocery store if the line is too long. Put the groceries back. Go home and starve. Don't buy groceries. Don't buy food. It's a choice to eat. It's a choice to live. The grocery store in line is too long. Go to Burger King. Get a burger from the drive-thru and go eat that and shut the [ __ ] up. Nobody wants to hear you complain. If you're in the hospital and you're upset that it's taking a very long time, go home and die. Don't get it checked out. Don't get it looked at. Everything is a choice. Don't go to the hospital if the wait is too long. Thug it out. I went to um I remember I went to Disneyland grad night. I went with a girl named uh Donnie and uh she had anger issues. She was always anger angry. And she was like, "Oh, it's so many people here. It's it's so tight. It's so many people here. there's too many people. And I was like, hey, we're here. We're part of the problem. We could have stayed home. I would have loved that. I would have loved like sitting at home doing nothing. It's too many people at Disneyland. I'm there. I'm contributing to the crowd. So, people are there and they're angry and they want to go home and they want to get out of there. And I do, too. But I'm just a silent hater. I hold my I'll hold my hate and my anger inside. You'll never see me stress out. You'll never see me sweat. You'll never see me trip. I will just be quiet and anxious and angry and resentful. But I'm not going to be like, "Fuck, I want to go home, man. Hurry up, man. You're taking too long. All these mother." You're not going to hear me complain because complaining will not help the process. If I complain to you, why would you speed up and give me better service? If I complain to you about the quality of the food, feel free to spit in my food. If I complain to you and degrade you and talk about you and tell you to hurry up, why would you give me better service? Anyway, I'm waiting by the restroom patiently and quietly. I'm really into uh the chef show that's going on. It's a black couple and they're cooking a steak uh brunch with uh Homonyy and they're they're making eggs and and potatoes and it's a Hispanic couple and they're making mano and ceviche and I'm just enjoying the show. The nurse calls my name. I go to the back. They get ready to take my vitals. The guy looks at my chart. He says, "Hey, you just came from Urgent. They already took your vitals. We don't have to take them. You could go to the other room. Get ready to walk to the other room. A guy calls me. Hey, wait. Question. What happened to your arm? Is it a ruptured bicep? I said, I think so. I asked him, what do you know, man? He says, I was playing with my kid. I had a ruptured bicep. I had a surgery, man. If your if your bicep is ruptured and you want to get your life back on track, you better have that surgery, man. And I'm like, "All right, all right. I will." I go to the back. The nurse is escorting me through the back. It's like the scene in Good Fellas when they walked in through the kitchen. He's escorting me through like corridor. We going left, right, left, right, boop, bop, boop, bop. We hit a 100 corners to get to my room. I felt like VIP. We get to the back and he sits me in the room. Oh, the doctor will be right with you. I'm like, okay. So, you know, before he leaves, he asked me what happened. D I tell him, "Oh, well, uh, you know, I was playing with my kid. My kid jumped on me. Boom. I'm here." He said, "You know, I have a daughter and she jumps on my back and I had a neck injury cuz she jumped on my back and I keep telling her not to jump on my back." Kids, I'm telling you, man. Kids will do you. They will do you. I'm sitting in there waiting on the doctor to come in and I'm not in the mood for my cell phone, so I'm not looking at it. I looked at it for like a second and I was like, uh, I put my phone back in my pocket. I'm not in the mood. I look at the TV. It's the TV on the wall to the right of me. The Fifth Element is on. I can't enjoy it, though. It's on mute. So, I'm watching The Fifth Element on mute, but I'm watching it like this. So, now my neck hurts and I'm like, "Okay, can't watch that. I'm going to sit here in silence and meditate." I put my one good hand on my lap. The other one is still up like this. Up like this in a in a in a 90° angle, and I'm sitting there with my eyes closed. I'm blessed. I'm beautiful. Nothing but good things come to me. This will all work out fine. I want everything in the world. What is everything? I want what's mine. No more, no less. I want what I earn. And I'm doing all this [ __ ] for the process. My eyes are closed and I'm meditating and I'm manifesting greatness cuz I am great. The doctor comes in. She's cool. She's nice. She looks at my X-ray and she says, "Hey, nothing on the X-ray. It didn't show anything. Do you know why they gave you one?" I said, "I don't know." I said, "I told him, don't." I said, "Like my bone is okay. I'm not a doctor." I said, "But hey, you know, I I I don't know why they gave me the X-ray." She says, "Yeah, it showed nothing." She starts filling me up. She's feeling my biceps. She's feeling my forearm. She's feeling my, you know, um, just, "Hey, move your arm up, down, do this, do that, blah blah blah blah blah." Right? And she tells me, "Okay, looks like the uh bicep is ruptured. And if you still want to live a normal life, if you want to be active, if you have a labor intensive job, then you need to get the operation and go to physical therapy to get your arm back to normal. She said if you're 69, 70, or 80 years old, it doesn't matter. It'll heal and you'll be fine, but your arm will be weak. Very, very weak. But it doesn't matter if you're 69 or 70 years old because you're going to die anyway. Like you're you shouldn't be active anyway. So, I say to the second person, "All right, bet. Like, let's do the surgery." And um she gives me uh ibuprofen and narcos and she gives me a note off work and she says, "I put in a referral to a specialist. You have to go to orthopedic. They're going to call you on the phone. They're going to set you up an appointment for orthopedic and they'll uh schedule you a surgery." say, "Okay, thank you." Holy [ __ ] it's a tribe called Best. There's a part of the story that I feel was a pertinent part of the story and I forgot it. So now I'm going back to drop this in part of the story. So I told you guys I ended up in the ER and I was getting checked out and I'm just happy that I'm going home. It's over at least for the night. I don't know how long it's going to take to recover. I don't know uh how long the surgery's going to take. I don't know how the surgery is going to feel. And quite frankly, now that I know I was referred to a specialist, and they're going to tell me if I need surgery or not, I'm just I'm nervous. I'm apprehensive, but I'm happy to be moving forward. I'm going to get some kind of resolution out of this. I'm walking out of the ER. They didn't escort me out this time. and they just told me follow the red lines on the ground just like how you got in pooping. Follow the red lines and uh you know that'll lead you to the exit. So I get to the double doors and I look to the right of me. There's a window. It says uh reception slash check out. So, I I got my um paperwork in the bad arm and uh I sit it on the counter. My phone is in my pocket. I got on basketball shorts, so my phone is all loose and floppy. I don't want it to fall out, but sit the paperwork on the desk to like discharge paperwork, blah blah blah, work from a note for work and blah blah blah. I sit all that on the counter and I have my vegetarian Philly cheese steak sandwich in this hand in a good hand and let let's pretend just imagination this is a bag full of vegetarian Philly cheese steak. I sit that on the counter and the receptionist is a black woman of a certain age, maybe 50, 60, 70, something like that. Black don't crack, so I'm not quite sure exactly how old she is. Nice looking woman. She's aging well. I She asked me for my phone number or my medical record number. I give her my medical record number. I apologize. I give her my phone number. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. She looks me up. Oh, Mr. Knowlo, there you are. She says, "Uh, you just came from urgent care." She was like, "It looks like you've been here all day." She looks at the sandwich. She says, "I saw you walk in with that sandwich." She said, "When are you going to eat it?" I said, "I don't know." I said, "I got this sandwich about 7:00. I said, I was in the car with my wife. I I was I was chatty patty. I was yapping. I didn't eat the sandwich when we was in the car. I was in pain and I was just, you know, yapping through it. just conversing with her regularly. So, I didn't eat the sandwich in the car. I said, I got to the urgent care and I was like, "Oh man, there's too many people in here. It's like 15 people in here. Gross. It's all these people around. I don't want to eat around all these people coughing." And I thought that the urgent care had a lot of people. It's probably like 15, 20 people in there. But the ER had a lot of people. Earlier, I described to y'all how the ER was looking. So, the urgent care was light work and the ER actually had a lot of people. But I've been pinging ponging across the street all day. I went from urgent care to X-ray and then I went to uh this building for something or another. Walked around for a restroom, but I'm I'm I'm pinging ponging from department to department and I'm just holding the sandwich. And like I said, kind of distracted by the arm. I didn't get to the sandwich. And the lady said, "So, and side note, side note, God bless women. God bless black women. Thank you. I love y'all. I can't think of a point in my life where a woman hasn't blessed me or been kind to me. And I can't think of a point in my life where a black woman has not went above and beyond for me and been kind to me and loved on me properly." I just wanted to say that cuz this is just another example of a woman being kind to me and another example of a black woman loving on me. I just wanted to say that in in my life uh things happen in my household. Life be lifing something happen with money, the universe blesses me, something good happens. Somebody gets hurt, sick, injured, something good happens, the universe helps me. Uh sometimes I think that the universe talks to me personally or whispers in my ear. I think that the universe says I love you and you're highly favored because my life is the same as anybody else's. I get peaks and valleys, but I always find a way to get blessed when I need something. A lot of times I don't need nothing. It'll be a want or a desire or something I'm lusting after. It will come to my life. I'm highly favored. The universe loves me and I keep just getting blessed and I have these good things that are coming in abundance. That's how I know speaking on this mic is going to work at some point. being being genuine, being honest, being a person that I am, all the vulnerabilities in me making my version of IRL content, just talking about my life and what I want to talk about is going to resonate. If the message resonates, the message motivates. If I'm saying something that makes sense to somebody and it resonates, then it motivates. And I said a tribe called Best is here to inspirate and motivate. I digress. back to the black woman. I get there, she she notices the sandwich. She says, "So, when are you planning on eating that sandwich? I know you hungry." She said, "Was that your dinner?" I said, "Yeah." I said, "I've been holding on to it for like like 3 hours, three and a half hours." She she's looking. She's like, "Oh, okay. It says your co-ay is 150." I'm patting my pockets. I'm looking through my through my um front pocket, right pocket, left pocket, back pocket. I'm looking through my man purse. I'm looking for my wallet trying to fish it out. I find my wallet. I sit it down. I spread it. I start fingering it. I start looking for my uh for my my debit card cuz for whatever reason I didn't have on my watch. I don't have it on now. Uh my memory is awful. I can remember 25 years ago, but five minutes ago, not so much. But I always forget my watch. I always forget my jewelry. I always forget everything. and uh I didn't have on my wife so I couldn't just buy Apple Pay it right there. So um fishing through my wallet. I'm looking for my debit card. I find my debit card. I pull it out. She said, "Oh, you've been here all day, honey. You came from urgent care, baby. You've been holding that sandwich for three and a half hours, honey. I know you hungry. Your arm is broken." She said, "Go home and eat your dinner. Go eat that sandwich." The co-ay is $150. I'm waving it. You're not paying it. You came from the urgent care. You paid them. You're in pain. You're hungry. Go home, baby, and eat your sandwich. Man, you don't know how I felt when she said that. Money is not everything, but money is a thing. Money is important. I am injured, so obviously I'm not at work. I don't know when I'mma be back at work. So, um, you know, it's little things pertaining to that. Um, FMLA, disability, whatever the case may be, uh, bureaucracy and paperwork that I got to go through to figure out how to get some money. And I'm going to be figuring out figure figuring that out in the coming days. But at the moment, what I know is I just uh gave urgent care a co-pay. I just had a X-ray co-pay. I paid for some uh for some uh narcos and some like extra strength OD ibuprofen yesterday. Pay for that. So that's uh y'all got me three four times. Um I go to the ER, it's going to be $150 co-ay. And when I get this surgery, there's going to be some co-ay. So money is a thing, but money is not everything. And I'm also blessed, beautiful, and nothing but good things come to me. And when something happens financially, physically, spiritually, sick, injured, mental health ain't doing that good, something good always happens. And when this woman said, "You just went to urgent care and you gave them a co-ay. This copay for ER is 150 and you're hungry and you're hurt. I'm waving that. You're not paying that." That's $150 extra dollars in my pocket because this beautiful black woman had a conversation with me and I had a conversation with her and I was being uh you know is as nice as I can cuz I always try to be kind and I always I always lead with love. Um I'm not a I'm not a people person but like I know how to wear the mask that matches the moment. I'm very kind to people. I'm very loving to people. And people are very kind and loving to me. And that's nothing but blessings. And that's nothing but love. And that's nothing but the universe. So I ran it and I raved. That's what I do. That's why y'all gonna fall in love with this podcast. I call it like I see it. And um yeah, I just wanted to tell you that I thought that was a very important part of the story. I thought that that was pertinent information. I thought that that was something that needed to be told in this ruptured bicep saga. I w I walked away from that woman feeling uh like feeling touched like like no cap, no hyperbole like on Jesus. like I walked away from her kind of like feeling, you know, like like emotional, like like taken a back. You know what I'm saying? I felt like a way about it. She said it didn't have to be paid and I was just like grateful. And I'm going to get into the story of um my my arm. It's heavy and it hurts, but you guys see I did end up having a surgery. So, that's another story. Hopefully, y'all tune in for it. But, thank God for insurance. Thank God for my job. Thank God for a support system, my family and my wife and everybody else loving on me. Um, the co-pay for the surgery was $200. She just saved me $150 and I paid $200 for this. So essentially I paid $50 for a surgery. Do you know how much like I got out of that $50? I told my wife I got a lot of value out of $50. I went to a hospital, a nice staff. People talked to me nice. You know how they say talk to me nice, [ __ ] People talked to me nice. The nurses in there, you know, loved on me, care for me. I met the doctor, nice guy. Everybody explained everything every step of the way. I got anesthesia. I got surgery. I went in the hospital. People talked to me nice. They knocked me out. I woke up and they said, "You're done." I don't know what happened. I don't remember nothing. I can't tell y'all nothing. But for $50, I went to the hospital, had people talk to me nice, knock my ass out. I woke up and they said, "You're done." Holy [ __ ] It's a tribe called Best. I call my old lady. I let her know what's up. So, you want to ride? You want me to pick you up? I mean, Junior's sleep. I mean, he's sleeping. Don't worry about it. I'll take a Uber home. Let sleeping dogs lie. That's not what that means. But just let them sleep. I'll catch a Uber home. Everything will be all right. She writes me a prescription for more narcos and uh ibuprofen, so I go to the pharmacy and get it. It's a 24-hour pharmacy across the street. So, I double dutched and ping pong and pickle ball across the street like 70 times today. So, I go to the 24-hour pharmacy and I put in my prescription and I'm watching a video about the fall of Dame Dash. And uh then my medicine is ready. I get my medicine. The Uber comes. I get in the Uber. Really nice 26y old Indian guy. His name was uh I think Abdul. We talked and he was asking about the arm. I explained it to him and I told him, "Yeah, my kid took me out, man. He disfigured me." Then he started asking about kids and duh. We had a conversation about kids and I told him, "Hey, the world is ugly. Everything is expensive. We're going to hell in a hand basket. I don't recommend anyone have children. If you do want children and you have the means to raise them and the patience and love and protection, okay, I guess have kids. But I don't recommend bringing children into this cesspool and and the expense and the patience that comes with raising a child. He drops me off at my house. I explain what's going on to my old lady. I got the sling on. I lay down and I go to sleep. I had to sleep on my back cuz I got the sling. This is uh at this point it's like maybe like 1:00. So it's Thursday now. Call off work. We have a hotline where we call off. Call off. Next day I go up there, bring them my doctor's note. They seem cool or at least they're figning cool. I sit at the crib Thursday, try to record some videos, try to do some stuff. D I'm still waiting on the uh the orthopedic uh person to call me. They call me, they say, "Uh, appointment Friday 9:30." I'm like, "Nice. Cool." I go to the appointment and it is it's at 9:30. I get there at 9:00. I park and I check in. Whenever I wake up at night, when I hear things go bump in the night or I hear a noise outside or I get up to pee or I get up with and my heart is racing from crippling anxiety, uh, worrying about my future, I always check the time. Whatever I'm doing, I check the time. If I nearly avoid a car accident, I check the time. It might have some relevance to my life. So, my appointment is at 9:30. I get there at 9:00. I check in. It's 9:09. I asked the gentleman. I say, "Hey, man. Um, raise my hand, permission, sir. May I go to the restroom, please?" He says, "Yeah." He said, "You you got plenty of time." He said, "Go ahead and go into the restroom." Go to the restroom. One arm, take off my shirt, take off my sling, and I am taking the most satisfying dump. I mean, it's good. I eat a lot of tofu. I eat oatmeal every day, but I've been really trying to double down on the salads. So, I'm taking this like really good like satisfying dump. It's uh not 9:30, it's 9:23. My phone rings and it's the receptionist. It says Kaiser Permanente. Hi, Mr. Uh ItsMeKnowlo. I was wondering where you were. You have a 9:30 appointment and uh the doctor's looking for you. And I said, "Oh, yeah." I said, "No." I said, "It's 9:23." I said, "I'm in the restroom. Um, I'll be right there. Let me wrap it up. Give me a second. Go ahead and finish that." Uh, I go back to the the the lobby, the waiting room, the reception area, and she comes out and she gets me and she says, "I'm going to see Dr. God, can I say names? Is that safe to do?" Dr. E. Let's say Dr. E. Oh, you're going to see Dr. E. I go in the back. I see Dr. E. He uh, you know, he fills me up and he's feeling the biceps. He's feeling the forearm. And he gives me the explanation. A distal biceps rupture occurs when the tendon attaching the biceps muscle to the elbow is torn from the bone. So, you can move it up and down, but it's very weak and it'll eventually heal and it won't hurt anymore. But if you don't get the surgery, it'll be very weak and you will lose the supenation in your arm. Weird word, huh? You guys never heard that, huh? Me either. So supenation is this. Sorry for the people that are listening. When your hand is like this, it's this motion. So he said like say you're turning a door knob, you're um using a screwdriver, anything like that like the twisting and turning, you will lose that. Your hand will be very weak. So he got my good hand, my left hand, and he says, "Oh, I'm going to hold your hand." He says, "Try to stop me from twisting your hand." I try I I stop him from twisting it. Easy peasy. I have strength there. He goes to my bad hand. He says, "Oh, try to stop me from twisting your hand." He twists my hand immediately. He says, "See, your supenation is off. You have none of that twisting, gripping side doorork knob screwdriver strength, and you won't have it unless you get the procedure." So I say, "Okay, let's do it. So he says, "Let me explain it to you." To surgically repair the tear, doctors locate the end of the biceps tendon and remove any damaged tissue. They then drill a small hole through the top of the radius and size the end of the tendon to fit the width of this hole. Surgeons suture the tendon to a small oblong surgical button that they pass through the hole. The button sits on the opposite side of the radius anchoring the tendon. The procedure should be performed as soon as possible after injury to avoid further tissue damage. Sometimes tendon tears occur higher in the more vascularized area of the tendon. In these cases, a simpler procedure may be possible, suturing the two ends of the tendon together. You're going to have to go to a lot of physical therapy to learn how to use the arm properly again without overdoing it. because if you try to go back to your normal activity, you're going to rupture the tendon again and it'll be worse. So, it's going to be a lot of dos and don'ts and you're going to have to go to a lot of therapy because you're going to have to be very slow uh back, you know, to get back on the horse, so to speak. I say, "Okay." He puts me out. He says, "I put in a uh referral for the specialist, for the surgeon. They're going to call you within a day or two and they're going to set you up an appointment for surgery." I said, "Cool. I get out of there. I go I'm running errands. I'm getting toiletries. I'm getting some last minute things for my son's birthday party. My son's birthday party is Sunday. He is turning five. The big sinko. Zero sinko. I'm picking up some last minute things and I'm in the store. My phone rings and I answer it and it's the uh doctor, let's say Dr. R. Hey, is this uh Knowlo? I says, "Yes, it's me. I'm calling you to set up an appointment for the uh for the procedure for the surgery." He goes through the same thing. He explains it to me. This is how the surgery is done. It's for your supenation and it's to get the strength back and you got to go to physical therapy and it'll take this long for you to recover. You want to do it? I said, "Yeah." He says, "Sunday 6:00 a.m." Says, "Sunday?" I said, "That's the day of my son's party. Is it any other day?" He says, "Well, if we reschedule it, it'll be some other doctor. Uh, and I don't know when they'll be able to do it, but you need it done ASAP, and I can do it Sunday 6:00 a.m." He says, " 6:00 a.m. to 10 outpatient. You'll be out the same day." He said, "You can go home." Uh, hit up my old lady. Hey, going to do the surgery Sunday. You know, should I cancel the party? What are we thinking? What are we doing? like, "Should should we call it off and just I said, "Hey, we paid for all this stuff. We invited a bunch of people. The show must go on."No, we're not canceling. I will call my mother-in-law or my brother and ask them if they can take me to or from the hospital. Uh the the the doctor says, "Uh oh yeah, yeah, yeah." Cuz cuz I asked the doctor, I said, "Oh, let you know, let me check on my old lady, you know, cuz I wear panties, right?" So I said, "Yeah, let me check with my old lady." So, you know, that's a conversation I had with my old lady. Don't cancel the party. The show must go on. Blah blah blah blah blah. I will figure it out. So, after I uh, you know, get off the phone with her, a few minutes later, the doctor calls me back. Hey, so what's up? I say, "Okay, we're on. Let's do it. Sunday 6:00 a.m." So, he says, "Okay." He says, "I'm going to get another call. was from his secretary and she's going to give me instructions, you know, for like the day of the surgery and the day before and blah blah blah blah blah. About an hour later, I get home, my phone rings. She says, "Hey, I am Dr. R, uh, secretary, receptionist, uh, assistant. Come in Sunday. Check in at 6:00 a.m. The night before Saturday, don't drink any water after 11. Come check in 6:00 a.m. Sunday. We're going to get you fixed up. And you guys are up to speed as to what's going on. My arm and my saga. And what I'm going to do is Sunday, I'm going to go have the procedure and I'm going to let you guys know how it goes. After the procedure, I'm going to go to my son's birthday party and I'm going to let you guys know how that goes. This is my journal. I'm having a lot of fun on some IRL [ __ ] just documenting my life. And maybe people love it, maybe people hate it. But the whole purpose of this is just telling regular people regular stuff. Like a lot of uh IRL content, a lot of vlogs, a lot of people that have stories to tell these outlandish things. I went and bought this. I went and did this. I went and traveled here. I was with that important person and this important person. And none of that is important. It's all stupid. We should all be regular people living regular lives and we should be having fun telling each other about regular life and stuff that's going on. So, I don't know if you care. I don't care if you care because you could just scroll past this, but I really hope you enjoyed the story. And there will be a followup. We going to have another story about the surgery and the birthday party. I'm blessed. I'm beautiful. Nothing but good things come to me.